I’m giving up

I’ve giving up on a lot of things. It’s not that i’m a quitter or i’m depressed, I’m just tired and I’ve decided to be done with everything. AHHHH it’s good to get that off my chest!

On a happier note my children (including the man) are all playing happily with all our new toys. My play area is a huge American debauchery. BUT I LOVE IT!!!!! I’m sure a few hundred kids would love to have just one of our toys and they will I just have to go through them first- DREAM CENTER HEAR I COME. It’ll be like I’m a female santa after Christmas… I guess that’s not at all the same thing but’s I’m excited to give lots of our stuff to people who are in need and will actually enjoy it.

randome christmas

I love christmas. The world is a little nicer. And I get to shop for a reason.  I am greatly anticipating christmas this year!!!! The older kids know what’s going on- and they still believe in santa (i think it’s cool I never believed in santa) and J gets excited really easily and knows how to open gifts. My families…. I think it’ll be fun too. Well at least we all will have somehting to talk about after our gatherings.  I hope this year my anderton family (as a whole) will finally accept my children as actual- real- true family members, and not as some one elses blood  (blood is only as thick as you make it). It would be cool.  I always get warm fuzzies from my memories. I have so many memories of christmas past- many people, food, laughter. I have bad memories too. But you take the bad while expecting good, and live your life like you dream. Do good things for others, unselfishly and a million miles outside your comfort zone. Oh and I love our new church- it’s so cool.

MY MY

Look at our world! Obama is president elect. Blogoyavich got caught, finally. It’s ten days until christmas. The stock market and economy are tendering between crashing and recovering. The US is on the brink of becoming the USSR or somehting close to it. One of my sisterinlaws is pregnent (that I know of). My job still sucks- well that has stayed constant! My husband is in charge of the finacnes.  And ya know what?! I don’t care about one thing right now!!! You should try it, it’s great.

We started a new church about 2 months ago. I really like it. I’ve hated church for a long time- so this is big for me.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I will be stuck in the same job dealing with the same shit for a really long time- student loans Yeah!!!